Good Vibrations Gratitude Friday #37

It’s Friday! You know what that means. Time for some good vibrations gratitude.

This week I am starting something new.

I am inviting you join me on Good Vibration Gratitude Fridays!

Exciting, right?

You are probably wondering how you get in on the action.

It’s easy!  If you are grateful for something, please either comment below or share a pic of what you are grateful for on Instagram with the hashtag #goodvibrationsgratitude

Also feel free to follow me on Instragram at @kerrymckim

Here are 5 things I am grateful for this week.

  1.  A day at Liberty Ridge Farm

    Last Friday I attended my daughter’s Pre-K field trip to a local farm.  The weather was beautiful.  We couldn’t have asked for a better day or better company.

  2. Apple Picking at Hick’s Orchard

    My daughter and I spent a fun day with Kimmy Gibbler and her family at Hick’s Orchard where we picked apples and did a corn maze.  So much fall fun!

  3. Time with my bestie

    The night before we went apple picking (#2), my daughter and I slept over Kimmy’s house.  It was so much fun to spend time together.

    Kimmy even made a boujee cheese platter.  And she made one for the kids too.

  4. My Red Sox Baby

    As I write this, it is the bottom of the 8th inning and my beloved Red Sox are playing Houston.

    October 15th was Pregnancy and Infant loss day and I shared my story on Facebook about my Red Sox baby.  The night the Red Sox won the 2013 world series, I felt lucky (we just started trying) so I peed on a stick and it said I was pregnant.  Bryon and I were so excited about our Red Sox baby.

    That baby died shortly thereafter but it took a couple of weeks for my body to figure it out.  Bryon was so strong for me but one night he cried and said he was sad he wasn’t going to hold his baby.

    I became pregnant with my daughter very soon after that so I tried not to dwell on my Red Sox Baby.  Because I couldn’t imagine my life without her.  This was the hardest thing I went through before Bryon died but I can honestly say that now I am at peace because I know he has gotten to hold both of our children.

    I am grateful for that.

    And I am grateful for those who talk about it because even though 1 in 4 woman suffer a miscarriage, I never felt more alone.

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  5. Red Sox going to the World Series!!!!

    Good job boys!

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    What are you grateful for this week?

    Don’t forget to comment or share a pic on Instagram using the hashtag #goodvibrationsgratitude

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Good Vibrations Gratitude Friday #36

It’s Friday! You know what that means. Time for some good vibrations gratitude.

Here are 5 things I am grateful for this week.

  1.  Fall in Maine

    I got to be in one of the most beautiful places on Earth during the most beautiful time of the year.

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  2. Greeting the Troops

    My father is a Maine Troop Greeter.  Military planes stop in Bangor, Maine because it is the most Eastern airport in the country.  And there is a group of volunteers that greet them.

    My daughter and I had an opportunity to join my father when a plane came in.  My daughter was not shy at all and wanted to shake everyone’s hand.  I am so proud of her.

    I am so grateful for this opportunity, as well as the volunteers who welcome home each troop.  And I am grateful for the Troops who serve to protect our country and our freedoms.

  3. Dinner and Drinks with Charlotte

    Charlotte and I tried out the Airline Brewing Company Pub in Ellsworth. The food and drinks were good and the bartender was friendly.  I am grateful that I got to try out this new place and for time with Charlotte.

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  4. Lunch with the Baker

    I also got the chance to have lunch with my friend who I will call The Baker because she is a baker. (Those of you who are unfamiliar with this blog- I rarely use real names) My friends business is called Affectionate Confections and she makes amazing wedding cakes.

    When my Maine Best Friend and The Scientist got married, she did their wedding cake.

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    We were going to have lunch in Bar Harbor but when we arrived in town, we realized that there was a cruise ship in town that day as well as several tour buses.  I was happy for the business owners of Bar Harbor but the city was packed.  So we decided to have lunch at The Tan Turtle Tavern in Northeast Harbor.

    After lunch, we spent some time down by the water at the Northeast Harbor Marina.  My daughter had fun throwing rocks into the water.

  5. Getting the opportunity to get in touch with my old self

    I know I talk a lot about personal growth and I am a strong believer in that.

    As I have been going through and purging my belongings, both at my house in New York and my parents house in Maine,  I have been coming across pieces of my life I have forgotten.  It has helped me remember who I am and were I came from.  I think it is important to be in touch with your old self in order to grow.

    I see myself doing an in depth post about this but I wanted to share a few of my favorites.

    My school picture from my junior year in high school

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    My palm card from my failed Maine House run in 2006.

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    What are you grateful for this week?

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Good Vibrations Gratitude Friday #35

It’s Friday! You know what that means. Time for some good vibrations gratitude.

Here are 5 things I am grateful for this week.

  1.  My day trip in Maine

    It was so nice to be home and feel that cool, ocean air.

 

2. Playing with my daughter

After our day trip, we did some playing in the yard at my parents house and at the playground at our local school.  My daughter said that the slide was the tallest slide in the world.  Imagine that?

 

3. Ice Cream and Gelato

My parents and I went to an ice cream and gelato shop in our town called PugNuts.  I had to get three flavors because I wanted to try them all.  My favorites were the coffee flavor and the seasonal pumpkin flavor.  My daughter chose cotton candy because it was blue.


I had to laugh because my mother said that all the pugs reminded her of Puppy Dog Pals on the Disney Channel.

 

4. Being able to watch my daughter improve in gymnastics class.

I am so proud of her.

5. My daughters Pre-K Class and teachers.

My daughter is in a great program and I don’t doubt that she will be ready for kindergarten next year.

They seriously need to bring back the laser option.

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What are you grateful for this week?

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Good Vibrations Gratitude Friday #34

It’s (still) Friday! You know what that means. Time for some good vibrations gratitude.

Here are 5 things I am grateful for this week.

1. Kimmy Gibbler.

Monday was my bestie’s birthday and I am so grateful I have her in my life.

2. Karen at DirectTV

The DirectTV at our house wasn’t working and Karen from DirectTV patiently helped me troubleshoot. After resetting the main receiver, our service was restored.

And we were able to watch Paw Patrol. Thanks Karen!

3. This Is Us and Sorry For Your Loss.

If you haven’t heard of This is Us, then you are probably living under a rock.

There is a new show on Facebook Watch called Sorry For Your Loss. It stars Elizabeth Oslen as a young widow.

While This Is Us does a fabulous job depicting grief, I feel like Sorry For Your Loss nails what it feels like to be a young widow.

Many people feel that this show is so good that it should be on Hulu or Netflix but I think that the fact that it is on Facebook is perfect. It casts a larger audience.

I am grateful that both shows exist. It shows that our society is starting to break down the walls in talking aboit grief.

4. New Season of Blue Bloods.

Tonight is the season premiere of Blue Bloods and I am so excited. I missed it because I was having dinner with my friend Charlotte and her family.

I also grateful for DVR so I can watch it once I am able.

Three of my gratitudes this week have been about TV? This months has been about solitude and reflection and I may need to continue that next month.

5. Dinner with Charlotte and her family.

A sample of burritos and nachos from a local restaurant, some wine and great conversation. They say you aren’t supposed to talk about politics and religion and we manage to talk about the politics of religion. Fascinating.

What are you grateful for this week?

Good Vibrations Gratitude Saturday #33

I did it again!  It’s Saturday and I am just getting to my gratitudes.  Ooops.

Though in my defense, my friend Lynda at Writing Out My Storms pointed out last week that it was still Friday in Pacific Time.  So I am going to go with that.  I have been working on cutting myself some slack because I am doing the best I can.

So it’s Friday (on the West Coast) and it’s time for some Good Vibration Gratitude.

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Here is what I have been thankful for this week-

  1. My Dad. 

    I have a lot of reasons to appreciate my Dad.  But this week I am focusing on the fact that when he comes to visit, he usually does a couple projects around the house.

    And he brings his truck and we haul stuff to the dump.  Thanks Dad!

  2. My daughter’s 4th birthday party.

    This was the first year that my daughter had a “friend” party.  It was different but it is cool to see her turn into her own person and make her own friends.

    We had at a local place called Afrim’s that has bounce houses. The staff did a great job.  My daughter had been telling me since January that she wanted her birthday party there. It was a blast.  Most of her class was there and our cousins made it in from Massachusetts.  It was great that so many people came out to celebrate.

    I don’t have many pictures to post here because there are other children in them and I don’t feel comfortable posting pictures of other people’s children on my blog without parental permission.  I know I wouldn’t appreciate it if it were done to me.

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  3. Lunch with my daughter’s Godmother and her husband.

    I don’t get to see them often due to work schedules but we got to enjoy a wonderful lunch at a local Mexican Restaurant.  I didn’t get any pics so I am going to leave one of the birthday present they gave my little one.  But it was great to see them and catch up.

    And in case you were wondering about her dress shoes, those are Clarks.  Dress show on top, sneaker on the bottom.  Got them when I was in Maine at Mardens and I plan to look for more the next time I am in Maine.

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  4. Meeting local blogger friends.

    I “met” The Perfect Honeybee  when I came across her blog on WordPress Reader.  We had been following each other’s blogs for about a year.  She reached out to me a few months ago and invited me to partake in a local blogging group that she and her friend were starting.  Her friend blogs at Sweet Love & Ginger.

    We had our first meetup.  In addition to meeting the two founding members, I also had the pleasure of meeting Pattie of My Saratoga Kitchen.

    It was great to discuss blogging.  Even though our blogs are all very different, we still had an interesting conversation about blogging itself.  If you are a local blogger (Capital District NY or Saratoga County and nearby) and are interested, connect with me.  We have a Facebook group and we are planning on meeting monthly.

    I am also grateful that they didn’t mind that my daughter came along.

    This is a picture of my daughter ignoring us and watching YouTube kids.  I want to thank the Perfect Honeybee for taking the photo because I couldn’t because, well, my daughter was using my phone.

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    And on a completely different note, I had to block two Peppa Pig channels on YouTube kids.  She doesn’t watch Peppa Pig on TV but there is something about that show that she becomes very irritable after watching it.  Nope.  Not up in here.  Give me annoying Daniel Tiger any day.  Or those videos where kids are unboxing toys.  Or that stupid Elsia and Annia go camping video.  Just no Peppa Pig.

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  5. The fact that I get to be this girls Mommy.

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What are you grateful for this week?

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Good Vibrations Gratitude…Saturday #32

Okay, I missed getting this up on Friday but I didn’t want to miss my chance to making my gratitudes for the week.  For what it’s worth, I  haven’t been to bed yet.  So it is still like Friday.  Kind of.

cf405e2987ad50292c6bf9f99dd3bd71It has been busy settling into my daughter’s Pre-K year.  I have been enjoying the process and watching her grow.

I have realized that between raising my daughter by myself and keeping up with her activities, working full time, travelling, trying to have some semblance of a social life and trying to find time to write that I was spreading myself too thin.  It is evidenced by the fact that I haven’t been to the gym since March, I can’t remember the last time I went and had a pedicure (which is something I try to do a couple times a year) and my writing and creativity has suffered.

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I have taken a step back from things and decided that I needed to focus on my daughter and myself.  I have been doing a lot of reevaluating of my life.  I am in a difference phase of grief and I am trying to live my life again so I need adjust to the changes within myself as well as make sure that I am setting myself up for success in this new chapter.

So without much further ado…Good Vibrations Gratitude, um Saturday…

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Here is what I have been thankful for this week-

  1. My daughter loving Pre-K.

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    This picture was actually taken last week.  But this week was my daughter’s first full week in Pre-K and so far she loves it.

    I just can’t believe that this class is her last stop at her daycare.  Next stop is kindergarten.

  2. Celebrating Princess Style

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    My daughter was invited to a friends princess birthday party.  It was so much fun to see all the princesses and princes enjoy themselves.  Belle and Moana even showed up.

  3. Making new friends

    I actually made a new friend at the Princess Party.

    I was chatting with another mother who I did not know.  (I knew most of them because our kids are in school together).  I was talking to this new friend about my recent trip to the LBJ Presidential Library and she was excited.  I am not used t this.  Most people think I am a bit of a nerd.

    Turns out she is reading a book about each U.S. President and created an Instagram with her sketches about what she learned.  If you are into history, you should definitely follow her.

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  4. First day of gymnastics

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    My daughter had her first gymnastics class of the Pre-K year.  To say she was excited would be an understatement.  This was the only picture I got where she was not running around.  It always brings me joy to see her happy and learning and growing.

  5. First day of dance

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    We also had our first dance class of the year this week as well.  My parents had come in that day for her 4th birthday this weekend and were able to watch the class. She was so excited that she did snow angels in the middle of class.

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    I don’t know what was up with the snow angels but overall, she is more focused than last year.

    What are you grateful for this week?

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Good Vibrations Gratitude Friday #31

It’s Friday! You made it.  You survived the week!

Do you know what this means?  It’s time for some Good Vibrations Gratitude!

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I currently have a broken keyboard.  I dropped it and now the “L” key only works if I press down really hard on it.  So I am grateful for Amazon for giving me an ability to order a replacement which should be here tomorrow.  (And I apologize if there are any typos).

Today’s post is going to be a little different than my normal gratitude posts.

I am one week into my 40’s.  I am also in a new phase of my grief process.  With every beginning comes a period of reflection and a period of learning.  But I am optimistic that the next chapter is going to be a good chapter.

So I want to take a period to reflect on what I am grateful for in the previous chapter.

I am grateful for my time with Bryon.  I don’t know why it had to end this way, but even despite the sadness and pain, I would do it all over again in a heartbeat.

I am grateful that he didn’t give up on me.  I was a very closed off and stand-offish person and he persisted.  I am grateful for all the love he gave me and the fact that he loved me at my worst.  I am grateful that he worked hard to give me a great life even if I didn’t appreciate it at the time.  I am grateful for all that he taught me.

I am grateful for everyone who is remembers Bryon and isn’t afraid to talk to about him.  I am grateful for those who keep his memory alive.

I am grateful for my daughter.  She was my reason for getting out of bed in those early days.  She brings me so much joy as I watch her grow and learn.  She brings me laughter.  She reminds me of all the wonder in the world and to appreciate the little things.  I am so lucky to be her mommy.

I am grateful for my family for always being there, for reminding me where I came from and for always having my back.

I am grateful for my family for all the love they give my daughter.

I am grateful for my job and the ability to work from home.  I am grateful for the flexible schedule and for all the education opportunities that my employer provides.  I am grateful for the team I work with.

I am grateful everyone who has helped me and my daughter survive the trauma and aftermath, both physically and emotionally.

I am grateful for everyone who has helped me around my house.

I am grateful for everyone who helped me keep my sh*t together and who has held my hand as I completed the hard tasks of widowhood.

I am grateful for everyone who has check in and fed my cat when I am away.

I am grateful for my friends who have sat with me and let me cry.

I am grateful for those who have stood by me even when I have been distracted with all that comes with single parenting, work and grief.  If I haven’t seemed like a good friend, it’s honestly because my own cup hasn’t been full in a very long time.  What is in my cup goes to my daughter.  I don’t even take care of me so I am sorry that my cup usually consists of the end of the soda bottle that is probably more saliva than soda.  (The previous sentence is based on a statistic I have heard.  I haven’t looked it up because it’s after 1 am and I am feeling tired and lazy).

I am grateful for those who recognize that I am doing my best even though I drop the ball most of the time.

I am grateful for all the meals shared, especially the tacos, the wine and bacon.  (Though I don’t think we did all three at once).

I am grateful for all the phone calls, texts, messages and SnapChats.

I am grateful for people listen to me babble on and on.  I am only imagine what it is like to listen to me.  Social awkwardness + grief = me.

I am grateful for everyone who loves or has loved my daughter.

I am grateful for anyone who has made me laugh, especially in the past two years.  I really needed it.

I am grateful for everyone who loves me or have ever loved me.  Especially at my worst.

I am grateful for everyone in my life, for teaching me.  People and experiences are life’s biggest teachers.

I am grateful for those who listened and empathized and tried their hardest to understand.

I am grateful (admittedly cautiously grateful) for those who have hurt me because that hurt has taught me important lessons.

I am grateful for those who did not respect my boundaries because you taught me to reevaluate my boundaries and enforce them.

I am grateful for everyone who encouraged me to open about my grief.  Being open is the opposite of my introverted nature.  (Yes, I am an INFJ and we are often mistaken for being extroverts but I am an introvert).  I am grateful for all those I have met through this journey.

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A new chapter is beginning.

It is exciting but so many things are unknown.

I don’t know what it means for myself or for those in my life.  It is exciting and scary because I don’t know what is going to happen.  I don’t know who is going to stay and who is going to go.  I have no idea what my life is going to be like a year from now.  Heck, I am not sure what it is going to be like a month from now.

Everything is going to work out the way it is supposed to.

Though trusting the Universe is a weak area of mine…

But I know I can’t stay where I am at.  I can’t continue to live in the past.

It’s not fair to me.  It’s not fair to my daughter.  It’s not fair to those around me.  And it’s not fair to Bryon.

I am was lucky to experience the love that Bryon and I had.  But he’s not coming back.

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I know the best way to honor Bryon’s memory is by living again.  But the letting go part is not as easy as it seems.  Just like the rest of my “grief journey”, it is a process.  It is still going to take time.

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