A few weeks ago I said that I started writing a book and that that would not be affecting this blog. I meant it when I wrote it. So maybe it wasn’t actually a lie.
But I found that by keeping up this blog, I am too drained to write my book.
I also have felt uninspired when writing this blog. It has become routine and it has felt like a chore. Not that writing isn’t work but I feel like I haven’t been putting my heart into my posts. And it has shown because my blog hasn’t been growing. A big problem is that I stopped writing for me.
I feel like my writing and it’s creativity on this blog has plateaued. And the frustration has been draining my energy.
I have several projects in the works this summer and I need my energy for these projects. I will still be writing in this blog but it is only going to be when I feel inspired, whether it is once a week or four times a week.
I also need this summer to decide what direction I want my writing to go. My grief isn’t as turbulent anymore. Moving forward with my life doesn’t seem to interest people as much a roller coaster emotions. But I have had enough drama in my life. I am not going to manufacture it to create an interesting blog.
So this isn’t a breakup. Just an “I need space” moment combined with a “It’s not you, it’s me” moment. I look forward to being back when I am inspired and I will be checking in.
A few weeks ago, my daughters preschool class went on a field trip to a local farm for “Baby Animal Days.” The kids got a chance to pet the baby animals. It was a very cold and rainy afternoon but the weather did not ruin the fun.
Here are some pictures from the memorable afternoon. Do you live on a farm? If not, have you ever visited one?
We know what that means! Time for some Good Vibrations Gratitude!
- My readers
My last post was my 200th post. Thank you for reading and for all your support!
- Warm weather
While it seems that we have gone straight from winter to summer, I will take it.
- A rainy but memorable day.
My daughter had her first field trip at a local farm. It was a great day, despite the rain. I was going to write more, but I think the event deserves its own post. But here is a preview.
- Surviving wasps and ticks
Along with the warmer weather, we have been getting visits from unwanted guests.
My daughter had her first tick bite last night. I saw it in the morning. Now I know I must check her every night. I have never had a tick bite myself so I have never worried about it. Luckily I was able to get it all out with tweezers and we went to the pediatrician just in case. So I will keep an eye on it for a rash.
We also had a few hibernating queen paper wasps in the house. That freaked me out. I am not a fan of bugs. Killing bugs was Bryon’s job but now it is mine.
Sorry, I couldn’t resist. I laugh each and every time I saw that on my Facebook newsfeed. Though this was in a different context. Probably in the intended context.
Anyway, the day after I discovered the wasps was my routine treatment from the exterminator. Luckily Mr. Exterminator was very nice. He didn’t mind me staring at him adoringly because at that moment, he was my knight in shining armor. He even located a wasps nest on my garage and got rid of it.
- Everyone who has worked hard on the second annual Bryon C. McKim Derby Party
Saturday will be the second annual Bryon C. McKim Derby Party. I am thankful for everyone who donated their goods and their time toward this event. We raise money for my daughter’s education trust and toward the establishment of scholarships to be set up in Bryon’s memory at Siena College and Albany Law School. If you are in the Albany area, we hope to see you.
Tickets can be purchased here or you can buy them at the door.
What are you thankful for this week?
You know what that means.
Good Vibrations Gratitude Friday.
Here are the 5 things I am thankful for this week.
1. Being busy
I am writing on my phone while travelling. The WordPress app always messes up my formatting so I apologize for that. I also apologize for the lack of posts and the brevity of them. I had a three day turnaround between Philly and Boston. Well, Boston-ish.
I am thankful for the excitement in my life.
2. Weekend in Philly.
Last weekend I went to Philly with the girls for friend bachelorette party. I am thankful for be a part of it and that my parents watched my daughter so I could be a part of it.
Philly post coming.
3. Boston with my cousins.
My cousin is up from Florida and I took a few days off to spend time with them.
Boston(ish) post coming.
4. Living near history
I love that I live so close to cities with so much history.
5. My bestie!!!
My best friend had her birthday yesterday and I am so thankful to have her in my life.
What are you thankful for this week.
I am so embarrassed.
I admit. I may have been playing around on Tinder for like, ten minutes when I was in Wisconsin a week and a half ago. (Travel post coming- I promise!)
I was curious as to what Wisconsin had to offer.
Wisconsin had a lot of offer. But too many of them had “Uncle Greg” listed as a mutual contact and that would have been weird and awkward.
I find the whole Facebook friend connection thing to be awkward and uncomfortable.
I deleted the account.
Because swiping is boring.
I know I played around before and it was amusing but I don’t find it amusing anymore.
Swiping is not for me and I doubt it ever will be.
I want organic connections only.
I am open to whatever the Universe sends my way but until the Universe sends me love, I am content to be by myself.
I just want to focus on myself.
I mean, I am pretty awesome but I can always be more awesome.
Apparently when I deleted my tinder account, I didn’t uninstall the app. I just let it sit dormant on the phone.
Well I tonight got a notification from the app that my profile had ten likes and that they were waiting for me to swipe.
I was mortified.
I am not the most tech savvy but I know I deleted the account.
Maybe it is because Mercury is in Retrograde?
Mercury Retrograde causes your technology to be messed up and WordPress keeps messing up my spacing…
Then it dawned on me that I let my three year old daughter watch YouTube kids on my phone.
What can I say? I am on my way to becoming Mom of the Year 2018.
I used to let my daughter play on my regular YouTube app but decided that probably wasn’t the best idea.
Plus, my suggested videos in YouTube started showing options like this-
Or even worse…
So I downloaded the YouTube kids for her but sometimes she accidentally closes it and opens other apps.
She almost sent a SnapChat the other day that a picture of my floor with something like “sdjddfhsdf” written in the text.
So she probably opened the Tinder app and hit the button that lets you sign up with your facebook account.
It’s actually really easy to do.
Either that or she is trying to play matchmaker.
I can’t make this sh*t up.
I am okay with her sending random weird snaps accidentally to my friends but I draw the line at tinder swiping.
So sorry to the ten guys who swiped on me. I’m flattered that you took the 2 seconds to look at my pictures and decide that I was worth a swipe right.
I am done swiping.
I deleted the account and uninstalled the app.
Uninstall. Uninstall. Uninstall.