A few weeks ago I said that I started writing a book and that that would not be affecting this blog. I meant it when I wrote it. So maybe it wasn’t actually a lie.
But I found that by keeping up this blog, I am too drained to write my book.
I also have felt uninspired when writing this blog. It has become routine and it has felt like a chore. Not that writing isn’t work but I feel like I haven’t been putting my heart into my posts. And it has shown because my blog hasn’t been growing. A big problem is that I stopped writing for me.
I feel like my writing and it’s creativity on this blog has plateaued. And the frustration has been draining my energy.
I have several projects in the works this summer and I need my energy for these projects. I will still be writing in this blog but it is only going to be when I feel inspired, whether it is once a week or four times a week.
I also need this summer to decide what direction I want my writing to go. My grief isn’t as turbulent anymore. Moving forward with my life doesn’t seem to interest people as much a roller coaster emotions. But I have had enough drama in my life. I am not going to manufacture it to create an interesting blog.
So this isn’t a breakup. Just an “I need space” moment combined with a “It’s not you, it’s me” moment. I look forward to being back when I am inspired and I will be checking in.
4 thoughts on “I lied to you”
Glad you are self aware enough to continue doing what’s best for you!
Do what you need to do! We’ll be here.
Good for you, Kerry! You’re right-writing is for you, although others may enjoy it. As long as it helps you, keep doing it, but don’t force it. Press on, Kerry! You got this!
I’m so happy you came to this conclusion! I feel this way sometimes, I even went to a blog conference where we discussed the “Burnout” effect. I plan to write a post about it because it’s so important to know yourself and what your inspiration is at the moment!